Tuesday, February 24, 2015

If at first you don't succeed...try re-doing your portfolio.

901 days since we've been officially on the books as of today!  And still, we wait. Sometimes more patiently and faith-filled than others.  There's nothing quite like the barrage of self-doubt that comes along with being a family hoping to be chosen by an expectant mom.  Why haven't we been chosen yet? Are we too old? Is it because we already have a child? Did I make us sound too selfish?  Does it seem like we're not good parents?  Should we have used a different agency? Should we try to market ourselves? How long should we keep waiting??

For a few months now, I've been thinking about updating our portfolio.  I put it together in the summer of 2012, after all, and at that time the boy had just finished 8th grade.  It doesn't seem like that long ago, but recently he registered for classes for his senior year of high school, and it has occurred to me on more than one occasion that the photos of him in our portfolio are now a little out-dated.  I mean, he basically looks the same, but not really.  He's taller, his hair is longer, he looks more like a young man instead of a young teenager.  I just feel like he's a little misrepresented in our portfolio now, so I decided it's time for some updating.

I'm just afraid I won't be able to stop there.  Because I know that the "Pets" page is outdated now, too.  And I could add or change more pictures on other pages, as well.  Or maybe I should just change the whole look and feel of the whole portfolio.  I kept it simple, but maybe it's too simple.  Maybe I should add more text.  Maybe I should make it more serious and less "fun".  I don't know!!  I have a copy of it here, but haven't looked at it for a while.  I should look at it soon, to get an idea of exactly how much I want to change before I go shopping for more scrapbooking supplies.

So, that's pretty much where we are now.  I did email our caseworker last week and found out that our portfolio was looked at six weeks ago (well, seven weeks ago now), but nothing since.  Besides the fact that I'm afraid I won't be able to stop once I start updating the portfolio, I'm also more than a little hesitant to do so because it means both of our portfolios will be pulled and sent back to us.  Which means we won't be "out there".  I guess that's not entirely true, because our cover letters will still be available for expectant families to look at, and I don't plan on keeping the portfolios a second longer than necessary...but it's still in the back of my mind.  Our mom can't find us if we're not out there.

Well! In other news...since I last wrote in here, I'm happy to say that I survived chaperoning the marching band trip to Tampa! Oh my gosh, it was so fun.  And even though the sun didn't come out until the day we left, and the day we went to the beach it was in the 50's and drizzling and the locals were wearing parkas while our kids were wearing bikinis and swimming in the ocean, it was so very nice to be away from winter for a short time.  Is it too late to relocate?  Heh heh heh.  A girl can dream!

A few days after we got back from that trip, the boy had his very first fender-bender.  :(  He was driving (my awesome 2007 Monte Carlo) to school for pep band one evening after a winter storm, and as he approached the intersection where he was going to turn right, the car hit a patch of ice and spun out.  The passenger side of the Monte Carlo took the brunt of the impact.  Apparently he clipped the rear bumper of the car in front of him and then slid up on the median and into a big wooden stop sign pole.  THANKFULLY no one was injured!!  Because this was at a busy intersection and things could have gone real bad, real fast.  The other vehicle was able to drive away with no problem, but my poor car wasn't so lucky.  I was able to baby it home, because this happened just about half a mile away from our driveway, but the insurance company ended up declaring it a total loss.  It sucks, but everyone has to go through their first car accident, right?  At least he wasn't hurt, and seems to be no worse for the wear, and is hopefully much more aware of dangerous driving conditions now.

The week after that was his 17th birthday.  I still cannot believe that my baby boy is 17 years old!!  Yikes! I wish he'd quit making me feel so old.  Ha, ha, ha.

Other than that, not much going on.  The boy is busy with school and music stuff (winter drumline, jazz band, piano lessons, guitar lessons, church youth music group, besides choir and band in school).  DH and I are working and trying to keep up with the boy child.  And counting down the days until winter is over, because we are SO over cold weather!

Wish I had more interesting news to report...maybe next time!  Thanks for reading this and thinking of us.