Yeah, that sums it up pretty nicely!
It's now March, and in addition to marking the occasion of DH's and my half-birthdays (yay?), our six-month "waiting" anniversary is just a week away. On one hand, I am looking forward to hearing from our case worker again. Not that we haven't been encouraged from day one to contact her any time we'd like, but we haven't. I know she's busy, and I don't want to take her time away from other cases just to hear that there's no progress on our case, yet. I have faith that we will hear from her in due time, and I guess that, even though it's a totally unfounded and unrational thought, I feel like we might "use up" our contact time with her, or something, if I "bug" her before it's Our Time.
I recently joined a FB group for other waiting families in our agency's program, and honestly I was disheartened at first to hear that other people have been waiting 14, 18, 20 months or more. !!!! I've been struggling not to "compare" because every case is different and yadda yadda yadda, but, yeah; six months isn't much compared to that. Sometimes waiting drives me crazy, and the thought of having to wait like this for a year or more makes me feel even more crazy. I start feeling like, I don't know how long I can do this; but then again, what choice do I have?! "Not waiting" is no longer an option. So I wait, and I wait, and work on coping mechanisms to keep myself sane (no comments as to the questionability of my sanity, please, hahahaha) for the long haul.
I've been crocheting a lot lately. I made a bunch of baby booties, and baby bibs. Too many for me to use, so I started giving some away. I've decided to start making baby booties to give to the newborns at the hospital where I work. Then I decided to make a blanket for a local fundraiser, a benefit auction for a young girl in our community who has neuroblastoma and her family. That went well (the blanket-making, that is; the benefit is next week) so I'm making another blanket, this one will be a belated shower/wedding gift for my high school best friend. Crocheting gives me something to focus on besides the fact that nothing is happening, adoption-journey-wise. And I need as much of that as I can get right now!!
I will update when I hear from our case worker for the 6-month update, if there is indeed anything to update about.
Take care and let the people you love know that you love them!!!
